"The Process"

So I'm moving to Tennessee and I've been trying to prepare for this whole process for months. But I can't say I've moved across the country before. Lucky for me I have my in laws who have been so generous to help me. Although i've gotten everything packed and I can't help not to stress over the paper work for the army to pay us back. Its also very frustrating when everyone tells you different things. But I'm staying calm and looking forward to getting things ready for my husband to come home. I wish I can skip the whole moving and go straight to the homecoming of my husband. I miss him so much and I can't wait to finally feel his touch and hear his voice without static.

Well I can't sit here to write more since time is ticking and I gotta use all the sun light I can get... I'll write more later when I get the chance...

"My New Chacos"

So it was a week ago that my husband sent me an email telling me about a place called Sierra trading post. He told me to go online and to pick out the Chacos I wanted. I was surprised that he told me that since we've been trying to save up money.. But I couldn't say no to that.. I love shoes.. And these Chacos are so cool and I could use them for hiking, rafting, and lot of other things too. I'm so excited for my husband to come home to actually go do these fun things with him. Now we can both sport our Chacos together :-) I love him so much!!!

"Old Chicago"

So I met a cool gal name Jenny at the post office and we became friends. She's from Germany and so is her friend Sandy. We decided to meet up again and go out to eat at Old Chicago... The food was yummy and we had a great time talking about all sorts of things.. Its been a while since I've been out with friends since most of my time here in Colorado I've been working...

Jenny and I

Sandy and I

The three new amigos!!!

After meeting up with the girls, we've also hung out a few times and I'm gonna miss these sweet girls.. Hopefully I'll get the chance to meet up with them again but this time in Germany...

1-5-11

Today was just another ordinary day with exception that my husband called me. Which made me really happy to hear his voice. Usually after 10am I look at my phone and think, he'll call me tomorrow, at least hoping inside. And to my surprise he called me today... I was reading my goals list from my previous post and todays has been one of those days that I just need to let go.

After talking to my husband on the phone I just wanted to cry because I miss him so much but I kept telling myself be strong don't cry let it go. I know last year was rough for me and this year I really wanna be and feel happy, not to say I wasn't happy but completely happy. Now I say this because my husband is deployed. No matter what I do my joy wasn't complete because my other half wasn't here to enjoy these happy moments with me.
I know some of you don't quite understand what its like having your husband deployed but embrace every moment you get with your spouse. Challenges arises in everyone's relationships but don't let the problem be more important than the person you love. Just a few days ago I remembered something an old co-worker told me and that was put the needs of your spouse first and then they will want to take care of your needs. Along with that I've been thinking a lot about the words of Elder Holland and that was "Think the best of those you say You Love"... Those words have been helping me with some of my issues. Your mind can be a wonderful thing but it can also be your worst enemy if you let it. Another thing that I've been trying to do is pray to have bad thoughts removed from my mind. I'm not gonna lie there have been nights that I wake up crying due to bad dreams that felt so real. As a military wife you try to keep yourself always busy but you can't help not to worry about your husband at war. I carry my husband in my mind and in my heart everywhere I go.

My husband will come home in February. I can't wait for him to be in my arms again. I can't wait to wake up to him in the morning and cook him breakfast and finally share our own home together. I love my husband so much I wish he really knew how much. Distance and being in war has made it tough to communicate and I can't wait to actually have conversations with my husband without the phone static or the calls being dropped. A friend of my husband's who is also at war with him told me"if you feel like that, imagine how us soldiers feel without our wives and on top of that having to go to war." I can't imagine what my husband and other soldiers are going through all I can do is pray for them. That really hit me deep. And got me to think from a different perspective. I've been so involved in what I'm going thorough that I've neglected to see what my husband have had to endure and for that I feel so horrible. I've been so selfish and for that I am so sorry. This has been our very first deployment so this has been a learning process for the both of us.

"New Year Resolutions"

Every New year we seem to make a list of our Resolutions but do we follow up with the ones we made last year? I've been thinking about this a lot. I had posted up on my wall some goals I had set last year and I must say I did achieve some of them. It made me happy to see that my list wasn't all in vain but this year I'm gonna try to make little goals to help me reach my bigger goals that take time to reach. Sometimes when we look at all the goals as a whole we can get overwhelmed and discourage that's why I decided to make little ones to help me reach the bigger goals.

See my ultimate goal this year is to embrace the happy moments and don't let the hard or sad moments drag me down. I know this is a big goal that is determined by my everyday mood and attitude. Sometimes in life you can't help but go through rough experiences and those experience helps us grow and learn. But we also have to take the time to feel it and then let it go and move on. One of my little goals that will help me with my ultimate goal is reading my scriptures or reading uplifting things that will help motivate me to have faith and trust in Our Savior. So that's was just a brief example of using the little goals to help reach your bigger goals.

Here comes the List... Oh how overwhelming.... lol

(* = Ultimate Goal)

* Embrace happy moments and don't let rough or sad moments get me down

1. Study the scriptures and internalize them

2. Serve others

3. learn to communicate better with my husband

4. get rid of debt

5. get physically fit and stay healthy

6. laugh more often

7. Don't over analyze things before getting the facts

8. get organized in home, school, work, etc

9. find joy in all the little things we take for granted

10. start a gratitude journal

11. Live the gospel of Jesus Christ, (reach spiritual goals)

12. get a job that I enjoy

13. work towards finishing my Bachelor's degree

14. work toward pursing my career in the dental field

15. take time to do things I enjoy

16. don't beat myself up for things I fall short of, but get up and give it another shot!

I know this list can go on if I don't stop myself.. lol. Any who I'm gonna break these goals into smaller ones that I can work on daily so that at the end of the year I can look back and feel accomplished.

Let this year begin!!! Bring it!!! :-)